t.i.r.e.d.

music: i can't stop smiling - velocity girl
mood: burned out but figured out

Isaiah 40:30-31
New International Version (NIV)

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

the passage above arrived in my inbox this morning, it was an
sms message from khris (i've been getting a lot of encouraging
messages from this Jesus raver). i was surprised because it was
the same Book that i have been reading, and im on the very same
chapter last night. its message hit me just now and i guess if
khris did not do the follow-up, i would've not gotten its message.
but the truth is, im really familiar with the verse, in fact; i
have those verses on my shirt. i really don't know why its
message didn't come across, God made it sure this time it will.

i made use of my God-given talents in response to the Great
Commission. i never missed church except those times when im
out of town doing field work. i enjoyed it and felt privileged
to do the things that i love doing and use it for God's glory. but
now, after 11 years in the praise team and 3 years teaching sunday
school, i feel tired. things start to drag and things start to
get difficult.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

one of the things that got stuck in my head when i attended the seminar
by hillsong's ruth athanasio is this: you need to be refreshed in
your ministry and you need new revelation from God, if not you will
experience burn out.

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

in all of life's concerns, things just lead to the throne of God.
i will lay my struggles of 'slacking up' and 'getting into the
groove' at His feet. at His feet where lives are saved, where
broken hearts are restored, where problems are solved, where
grace and mercy are freely given. Father these hands fail me,
restore my strength. Father these eyes fail me, restore my vision.
Father my mind fails me, grant me your wisdom. Father my heart
fails, renew my heart.

When All Around Has Fallen
Delirious?

When all around has fallen your castle has been burned
You used to be a king here now no one knows your name
You live your life for honour, defender of the faith
But you've been crushed to pieces and no one knows your pain

Come, come lay your weary head be still my friend
Come, rise I'll place my sword upon your shoulder
Come, rise with me

When tomorrow has been stolen and you can't lift your head
And summer feels like winter your heart is full of stone
Though all your hopes have fallen your skin is now your only armour
Wear your scars like medals defender of the faith

Come, come lay your weary head be still my friend
Come, rise I'll place my sword upon your shoulder
Come, come lay your faithful head, be still my friend
Come rise with me

Written by Martin Smith ©1995 Curious? Music UK

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