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may mga pagkakataon na gustong-gusto kong
may maisulat pero hindi ko naman mai-organize
yung utak ko na makapagsulat. at ganyang-ganyan
ang kalagayan ko ngayon. ang pagsusulat ay dapat
artistic at interesting sa nagbabasa pero blah
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no vision is like no hope

Provers 29:18 Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint;
but blessed is he who keeps the law.

pastor pointed out revelation here as vision. i can't seem to organize my
thoughts about the text right now, but yesterday's message is a call to put
into action your vision for the church. it stirred something within me
because i have been planning something in our church. a vision. a youth
gathering of sort. a worship event for the youth. they say when you dream,
you have to dream big. then act on it asking for God's help.

gusto kong ganun ang mangyari at kagabi pinag-pray ko yung vision na yun.
within six months guston kong ma-achieve yung vision na yun at gusto kong
ma-involve ang youth at young professionals sa church. astig.

sa pinag-aaralan ko pa yung main verse na gagamitin namin sa event. and then
we will start from there. may God help us..

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kitchie nadal is all over the radio today. her song
"huwag na huwag mong sasabihin" is getting the attention
it so deserves. i even saw the video of it, but only
the closing seconds. i really think that male actor
doesn't quite fit there. hehe. i wish somehow i can score
her cd, i really like bands with girl vocalists. i saw
her once at glorietta, she's all smiles and really cute.

*thinks of something to write*

been using isp at home and for the past three days, their
dial-up number is forever busy. i tried connecting to max,
and after a few tries i was able to connect. it's funny
because i'm still getting airtime there when in fact i have
exceeded my limit. i may have used it for about thirty hours,
even more. it says there 20 hours only.

still wasn't able to check my guitar's intonation. it seems
i have no problem going up the fretboard but i really want to
make sure it's well calibrated. we'll be using it in our
future recordings and i don't want to mess up with our sound.
aahh.. recording... sigh.. sana makapag-record na kami.

ano ba pangalan nung bida sa irene?

my ampalaya story

it has been a year. wow, it's been that long. i really wish
something happened but unfortunately my hopes fall crashing to
the floor. there are things that are really not meant to be,
maybe it was meant for other purposes. during those times i
kept on saying, "i came to seek Your will not mine." that's
the truth i held on to. truth that guided my heart much much
more than my mind. it kept me for days. months. a year.

surrendering to Your will is like eating vegetable as a five
year old kid.

when i was little i really don't like eating vegetables. i cringe
everytime ampalaya, spinach or okra is served on the dining table.
everytime my mom would notice my gastronomical disposition, she
would remind me of the benefits of eating vegetables. "it's good
for you, son," she would always say. perhaps it was through my
mom's prodding that i decided to give it a try. i really didn't
like it's taste. it's slimy and slippery and the bitter taste
doesn't seem to leave your mouth. 1.. 2.. 3.. years.. blech..
it was only when i reached hoghschool that i finally get to like
it. it's funny why it didn't taste as good as before. drawing
a parallel line between these two. i can say accepting God's
will is my vegetable. i may not like it at first or i may not
like it at first try but i have to do it. because it's good for
you. it'll make you strong. it will keep you from being sick.

beautiful vs. where ever you will go

the song beautiful from vineyard's release sounds like "where ever you will go" (?) of the calling. i need You like the rain.... sounds like the chorus when it goes like .... if i could then i would... i noticed it a while a go. i wish i could listen to the whole vineyard album. i heard the song because it was included in the sampler that my brother gave me when he came home from dublin. i first heard it when still played it on their set at johia (?). basta the church somewhere in cubao. and i thought it is a simple yet catchy worship song. it inda starts slow and the vocals then instrumentation slowly builds up in the end. astig.

tug of war

it still feels like i'm missing out on something. and i know as i get older, the gravity will grow stronger and will keep me dragging towards it. resistance is certainly not futile but very very difficult. i tell you, it's everywhere and it rears it's ugly head everytime.

it's an issue of who masters who. a master and slave thing. this is not limited to money, because a Christian is tempted in every aspect of his being. i remember Paul's struggles when he wrote about doing the things he ought not to do and not doing the things he ought to do. putting it in Filipino street slang, "Gusto kong bumaet, pero di ko magawa." Very true.

but in the end of Paul's statement, he praised God because of Jesus Christ, who gave us victory in all. through his death and resurrection. rendering our body of sin powerless, that we should no longer be slaves to sin.




a picture test.

whew..

i spent most of my time here in the office reading. browsed through decapolis.com, christianitytoday.com and then i checked out my old mails. i found a link to this blog whose owner i don't know. the link points out to his journal entry about waiting for the love of his life. he has very good insights about waiting, and seeking God's will. i have kept it on my inbox for some time now and put it on my "cherished" folder. hehe. very hard-hitting words, man. and his choice of words is precise, a very goood read.

on my way to work today the song "pessimistic" was playing on my head.
see, nobody knows the song because it's a new song and we still
haven't practised it yet. it is a good driving song, a song that
you'll want to play while riding smoothly on your car along the
north luzon expressway. but this morning there was an awful traffic.
did you see the connection? me neither.... i'm really sorry for my
poor sentence construction. i have a visitor today named incoherence.
tagalog na lang siguro..

inaantok akong kumain ng oat meal na may milo kaya parang champurado.
nakapikit akong kumutsara ng asukal kaya natapon sa kape na decaf naging
brown and white tuloy. nakapikit rin akong kumuha ng toothbrush na hindi
pala sa akin muntik ko nang nagamit. sige, mamaya na lang ako magpo-post,
medyo loose ang mga connection ng microchip sa utak ko eh.